Weight Loss Update #3 -- Down 5.6 lbs!

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Pursuing a Path with a Dead End

Life is crazy. I am sure you will agree. It is good and fulfilling and sometimes it can make you want to jump off a bridge. I am not ready to jump just yet. I still have some fight left within me, lol.

Anyway, I have been struggling with a decision lately.  This situation I am not at liberty to discuss right now, but when I can, I will.  This situation has been ongoing for the past two years and I have put a lot of effort into making this thing happen. Every opportunity that presented itself, I’ve jumped on it. Each time I have been told no. Even in times where I was so confident and so sure that it would be a yes, it has been a no. I am not a quitter and I do not take no for answer if it is something I really want and something I feel does not go against the will of God. I know if I keep trying to pursue something that God does not want for me, I will fail. Or I may even succeed but with terrible consequences. I don’t want that.

But let me ask you, and I know a lot of people who read my blog never comment, but I am asking for a comment on this post if you are reading this. You can leave it as anonymous if you would like. How can I be certain that all these “NOs” that I am getting in regard to this thing I am pursuing is not God trying to show me this is not the path for me. I have not heard Him speak to my heart about not pursuing this thing but am I too caught it in what I want that I have missed what He is telling me? I would love to hear your thoughts…

This Battle is Not Over

So this week I have been an absolute bum when it comes to working out and watching what I eat. I have not worked out for 8 whole days! I can definitely tell. I feel sluggish and my body feels heavy. My pants even feel tight. You are probably thinking that I am exaggerating but I am not. If I don’t workout for a few days, I immediately feel the difference. I just have not been in the mood. It takes a lot of energy to constantly watch what you are putting in your mouth and to make yourself workout especially if you are not feeling up to it.

In the last weight loss update vlog I posted, I had just gotten back from vacation and was motivated to start the new year off right and to lose the extra weight. That was on January 7^th  and that day I weighed in at 164.4. Today (not quite two weeks later), I weighed in at 168lbs. And this is NOT with clothes or shoes on! How? Why? I almost want to cry. Almost. I cannot cry though because I know it is my fault. Skipping the gym. Eating late. Eating what I want. Last night I ate two slices of Papa John’s pizza and about four cheese sticks at 9:30pm, just to climb into the bed and sleep at 10pm. So what do you think that pizza and breadsticks did? The food sat in my stomach and most likely got turned into fat because I was not burning any major calories in my sleep.

I am upset, disappointed, angry, sad, frustrated, and I almost feel defeated. I cannot maintain my weight without true WORK. Have you seen that tooth whitening commercial that says,  “If you are not whitening, you are yellowing.” If I am not working out/eating right, I am gaining. What happened to staying the same? It would not be so disappointing if two weeks later I weighed in at the exact same weight. Okay, I did not lose but at least I did not gain…..ya know? If you are reading this, please pray for me. Pray that I may have the strength to overcome temptation….the temptation to eat whatever my heart desires and temptation to skip my workouts due to pure laziness. Pray that the devil will not plant the seed of defeat in my mind, and if he does, pray that I will not believe it. This battle is not over.

Hopefully, the next weight loss vlog I post will be bringing good news. God Bless. Talk to you all again soon!

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Almost There!

I started my very last class towards completing an MBA last week. I should be excited. Well, I am excited but my motivation level is zero. I just cannot bring myself to do schoolwork in a timely fashion. I wait until a couple of hours before it is due to start working on it (I take classes online). I will have about ten minutes to spare before I hit the submit button to turn in my assignment. The thing about online classes is that you never know when you may have technical difficulties. So by waiting until the last minute to submit my assignments, I am really setting myself up to fail if the website is not working, or my internet connection is not working. I am just ready to be done with it all. Have you ever felt like that about something?

I should be sprinting to the finish line but instead I am crawling, lol.

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Make-up Look 1 | Cute and Casual

Hello Everyone!

Check out my first make-up look I recorded. I realized that recording yourself putting on make-up is a lot harder than it looks, lol. I think it turned out okay and will be doing more looks in the future. Thanks for watching!

One of my Favorite Quotes Ever!

“Far away there in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them, but I can look up and see their beauty, believe in them, and try to follow where they may lead.” ~Louisa May Alcott